Looking down.

The night before we take a pregnancy test is the most conflicted I ever feel in this process. The waves of hope and misery, doubt and possibility wash over me in a sickening torrent. It’s a precipice I simultaneously want to jump from immediately and stand on the edge of forever.

Bon chance.

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  1. Omg. I’m just like you. I enjoy not knowing because there’s still hope but thence not knowing is just as bad. It’s awful. You’ve described it perfectly.

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