fuck you too, universe.

L didn't get the job. The dean called today to tell her this. The dean also told her that she could "offer no critical feedback" because L was amazing, and the dean could see her at the school and thought she was fantastic. But the president wanted someone with more "full time experience building programs."...

I'm writing this on my phone,  from the couch,  where I'm watching my zillionth episode of "Bones" while hopped up on vico.din. Which is to say, forgive my typos, I have a lot of excuses. Surgery went well,  according to my doctor.  They did all the things they expected to,  and also lengthened my Achilles...

tick tock

It's been a long week. On Tuesday, L left for Washington state to have an extensive day long interview at the school in Olympia. Usually, Tuesday is my work from home day, and usually, I have a lot of flexibility with my schedule. But this week was not usual. Instead of my normal flexy non...

The rambling road to relief

First of all: Thanks, to all of you, for being such a badass supportive community. I think I feel most at home in this strange semi-anonymity semi-intimacy of a strong internet community. Is that weird? A sign of the times? I don't mean that I don't love and value my in-person friendships, because I do....

The Bigness

7 years ago, I started having panic attacks. I didn't know that's what they were. I just knew that I'd be trying to do something, and my mind would get swimmy and my breath would get short and my hands would get weak and trembly and I couldn't focus on any one thing because someone...

Olympia, take 2!

L just got a call for a second interview at the school in Olympia! She heads out on the 17th for a day long series of interviews with the dean,  the President of the College,  and a teaching demo with students. Maybe we'll be moving to the PacNW after all.  But most importantly,  maybe my...

Grumpasaurus

Uuuuuugggghhhhh. Fucking Monday, amiright? I'm both trying to be more diligent about posting weekly and also so uninspired by my job right now, that I am posting even though I'm kinda grouchy (couldn't tell, could ya?) and not entirely sure what I'm going to write about. I've been generally crabby/tender hearted/emotionally fragile for about a week now...