Well, it's CD12, try #4. Hope has bloomed again because how can it not? Another precipice of waiting - this is where the sweet spot is. There are good things, here in this moment: I got a really new, fabulous haircut. I have been rocking a modification of the same cut for a while now... Continue Reading →
The things that are keeping me hopeful right now: A totally unremarkable perfectly uneventful cycle last month. Downside of uneventful= not pregnant; upside of uneventful = a 32 day cycle, ovulation clearly happening on day 17, a 14 day luteal phase. In short, typical and healthy and not at all confounding. Bleeding again, because it... Continue Reading →
We jumped off the precipice and landed in disappointment. In other words, another startlingly blank window on the pregnancy test - one solid pink line and white white white. I have been a real mess this 'wait.' I've chalked it up to how hard life has been on all the other fronts. The huge grant... Continue Reading →
The night before we take a pregnancy test is the most conflicted I ever feel in this process. The waves of hope and misery, doubt and possibility wash over me in a sickening torrent. It's a precipice I simultaneously want to jump from immediately and stand on the edge of forever. Bon chance.
Fertility Friend and I agree that today I am 6DPO. Other than a horrific stomach-something-or-other that made yesterday a comedy of painful errors and the beginning of a cold passed along to me by my dear wife, I am feeling very good. I mean, of course I am. Even supposing a little cluster of constantly... Continue Reading →
I'm not willing to make proclamations on anything related to my junk anymore, but signs are pointing to ovulation yesterday (a + OPK on Monday, eggwhite cervical fluid M-W and a temp rise today) so I'm gonna go ahead and call it. Its been a helluva week and honestly, making babies has been the last... Continue Reading →
My approach to tracking this go around has been a bit more hands off, by obsessive lesbian type A standards, anyway. Previously, I had been very nervous about ensuring that I gave BFF and La good lead time and peed on multiple OPKs a day from very early on and was military style about the... Continue Reading →